obstacles

yesterday i was at church, i was trying to short out my schedule to tell people where i could help where. well in the time i got a chance to talk to our youth secretary, Rose. now i love Rose and her husband Sam. they are the most Godly people i know. they love Jesus and they love people. they are also the people i know would be there if i needed anything!

Anyways on to why I have a picture of a fridge. I was talking with her and she got this picture of a fridge standing in fount of me. that it looks like an obstacles in the way, but once you open it and look inside it is filled with fruits,veggies, and meats. and that God wants to fill me up with all the goodness or him and draw me closer to him, and then once I am filled I am able to move on.

this came at such a good time in my life.

Im going to go into honesty world with you all. Over these last couple of weeks, I basically looked God in the face and told him "no, he wasnt big enough" Today I was suppose to be on my way to Colorado Springs to the YWAM base. Everything this summer and every prayer pointed to Colorado. Every detail you could think of was there. The one problem was money. I didnt have any for a plane ticket and I didnt trust that God could give me one before today. So I said no to Colorado and decided to stay home and work.

So now what? I learn that God is a God of redeeming. That while I am here, God can still do a work in my heart. He can fill me up with the things of him and then I can move on, move forward. Life is a process.