he loves

im standing in awe of jesus right now. he has been so faithful in the times we may not want to be faithful back.

one important thing that i believe god has been teaching me over these last couple days is that he love ME!

i know, i know you read this and go duh, katy!

well sometimes we can hear things over and over again and never understand til one day the light come on and we go 'oh i get it'

he been showing me that he STILL loves me through the sticky stuff, that he still wants to USE me even in the moments i dont think he can. he told me tonight at the presence that tonight wasn't about me, that he was going to use me tonight and i just needed to worship him.

we had two alter calls and on the first one they ask all the leaders to come down and pray, I stop for a moment as i watched other leaders head down to the altar and i thought to myself, 'oh i cant do that!' then i heard a voice saying 'i am going to use you!'

so i went. i dont know if the words i prayed were the right ones or if the person i prayed for was changed, but i know i was. i know that god was teaching me that in the moment of my weakness he is strong.

i know that god loves ME even in the sticky stuff, and when i go before him in weakness he is going to be strong.

i pray has i go through this week i will let him love me, i will let him show me how even in the sticky stuff he can and will use me!

Freedom is?

Freedom is?

When you think about freedom, what picture comes to mind? Do you picture chains breaking, walls crumbing and someone breaking through? Or is it the the quietness of standing before the ocean on a sunny day with the wind blowing through your hair? Have you ever thought that your view on freedom was different from what freedom really is?

Walking through life I don't believe I have ever felt “free” from anything. Everyday I am faced with temptation. There are issues in my life where I would think that I was free from, but then deal with the temptation the next week or month and falling back into that sin again. Was I truly free?

On this quest for freedom, I want to know what the true meaning for freedom is! Does it mean that everyday I will face the temptation, but gain freedom when I choice to not give in to temptation that day? Or does freedom mean I never have to deal with sins that I once dealt with?

The Bible promise us freedom, “For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” 2 Corinthians 3:17 if there is freedom in the Lord then the answer should be simple. As long as we are in the Lord we should be free, right? That leads us to the next question, how do we stay in a consent relationship with God enough to keep us free?

What is freedom?