he loves

im standing in awe of jesus right now. he has been so faithful in the times we may not want to be faithful back.

one important thing that i believe god has been teaching me over these last couple days is that he love ME!

i know, i know you read this and go duh, katy!

well sometimes we can hear things over and over again and never understand til one day the light come on and we go 'oh i get it'

he been showing me that he STILL loves me through the sticky stuff, that he still wants to USE me even in the moments i dont think he can. he told me tonight at the presence that tonight wasn't about me, that he was going to use me tonight and i just needed to worship him.

we had two alter calls and on the first one they ask all the leaders to come down and pray, I stop for a moment as i watched other leaders head down to the altar and i thought to myself, 'oh i cant do that!' then i heard a voice saying 'i am going to use you!'

so i went. i dont know if the words i prayed were the right ones or if the person i prayed for was changed, but i know i was. i know that god was teaching me that in the moment of my weakness he is strong.

i know that god loves ME even in the sticky stuff, and when i go before him in weakness he is going to be strong.

i pray has i go through this week i will let him love me, i will let him show me how even in the sticky stuff he can and will use me!